If you read my last post, you know why I started Get Real and how I mentioned that getting real comes with a lot of pain. Well, this is another one of those moments that has and may cause pain for myself and others, because when you get real, others may hurt, as well.

I’ve been struggling with a sort of soul-tie, if you will. I had been in an on again, off again, sexual relationship with someone for about 3 years now, but finally decided to end it last night  by texting him and telling him that I’ve decided to live wholeheartedly for God. This is not the first time I have said something along those lines to him, hence the “on again, off again, for 3 years”, but this time I really meant it. This time was different…and not in that jail talk kind of way. This time I don’t see the freedom and grace and mercy I know I have, as an excuse to fulfill my own selfish wants. I see my freedom being a chance to live the way I know God has called me to and to serve Him, and to do it freely! To be me – the real me – without the fear of judgment, condemnation, or pressure to be perfect. He didn’t make me perfect…though, on my good days, I might argue that. :) He made me, me. I have the freedom to live for Him, and thankfully, I also live in a country that allows me to walk in that freedom, as well. I am blessed!

Now, has this been a battle? Heck yeah, it has! The world could say, “Why not just keep doing what you were doing?”, “you’re both single”, “everyone does it” – and in the world’s eyes, they would be right. But, I’m more than that. I was created for more than what the world thinks is okay. Besides, what does God say about it?

Can you live with the fact that God thinks one way, and you’re doing the other?

If you really have a relationship with Him and you want the life that He died to give you, then you will not be okay with going against what He has for you. Yes, we fall sometimes. Yes, we stumble. We’re human and we are not God. I just know that I, personally, can’t live my life that way of always going against Him.

A few things that helped me make my decision, other than the obvious pulling of the Holy Spirit, were that one of my daughters told me about their youth service at church and how the Pastor talked about if you are partying and getting drunk and doing your own thing, then coming to church, that you are a liar. I’m sure she was paraphrasing, but it made me think. And then when my friend said, “like you can’t serve the world and God, you can’t have one foot in and one foot out”, in response to what my daughter was telling us. And, like my best friend reminds me of sometimes, “We’re beyond all that now”. We know. And, she’s right. I do know. I am a Holy Spirit – filled, Christian, who has been saved and in church for 17 years, now, and grew in the things of God and came from such a strong foundation from the teachings of my former pastor. There’s no way I shouldn’t know. But,  as all rebellious children do, I was doing what I wanted.

I’m not saying that getting real is going to be easy, cause believe me, this is not easy. It will hurt – and it does – but, it all frees. As it’s been said, “the truth hurts”, but it’s in facing that truth, and dealing with it, that we are free.

It’s also been said, “The TRUTH shall set you free”

note: I have to give a shout out to one of my friends, who also inspired this post (though, she doesn’t know it), by sharing a blog post on Facebook that was raw and real and had to take a lot of bravery to do. Thank you, Blu, for being ‘real’. Here’s a link to her blog: http://thegreypear.blogspot.com/2016/08/coming-out-of-closet-finally.html

 

1 Peter 2:16 – Live in freedom, but do not use your freedom as a cover-up for evil; live as servants of God.